My Lover (don�t I wish!) first Fucked me four years ago. He picked me up at the Club. Before we left for my place, he made sure I�d fuck BAREBACK. That night he put three Loads up my Ass.
A few weeks later a friend of mine pointed him out and warned me to avoid him. �He�s POZ!� I didn�t say anything at the time, but I really freaked out. I got tested TWICE. Both times the results came back NEG.
For three years I avoided him like the Plague. Then last summer we left the Club at the same time, and walked together awhile—just innocuous chitchat. It was nice having someone to talk to. When we walked past the Park, he came on to me, saying he wanted to Fuck me. I sucked him, but wouldn�t let him Cum in my Ass. It was a decision that was destined to haunt me.
I began to obsess about him. Each time I saw him, I dreamt of contracting the Bug. I was sick of being afraid —of HIV, Syph, the Clap, the whole gamete of STD�s that made me play SAFE. I figured the only way was to confront them.
I hate to admit it, but AIDS was especially appealing to me—like it was where I wanted to be. Maybe I felt I deserved it. Maybe I wanted to die. Maybe I was simply turned on by the Dude. I don�t know. I�m not a very good psychoanalyst of myself. Then one Saturday evening I approached him and hinted I�d be delighted to be Fucked—BAREBACK—if he still wanted me.
I barely had his Cock in my Mouth, before he had It buried deep in my Cunt. He stayed the through the night, and I took his fourth Load up my Ass shortly before Dawn. After each Climax we�d cuddle and kiss. I figured he was biding his time—giving the Bug plenty of opportunity to absorb. And I didn�t protest. By morning I was convinced he was as much a Gift Giver as I was a Bug Chaser—which was why we were so compatible.
We�ve been together maybe a dozen times since then. He�s never admitted his Status, and I�ve never told him I know. He�s very Promiscuous, and a Top, and never uses a Rubber. He especially likes young things in their late teens or early twenties.
I get jealous. Each time he goes off with one of those Dudes, I compensate. Usually I go after the ones who don�t look too healthy. You know the type— sunken cheeks or excessively skinny.
My only requirement is that they TOP and do it BARE. Sometimes they admit that they�re POZ, but usually the subject never cums up. I guess they figure I know what I�m doing, or that I�m already POZ. I haven�t been tested since I�ve been Fucking the Dude, so I don�t know one way or the other.