Embracing True Colors
by Fahrenheit80
Continued from Embracing Life
Today was the day Brent Charles would face his biggest challenge. To be precise, he only had less than twelve hours left before life as he knew it would change forever. At first sight Brent couldn’t be happier as he was getting ready for his first performance on a nationwide television show. If he made it safely through the evening his big break would be just one step ahead.
Two years ago he started his singing career in local gay bars and some gay-oriented events. But his undeniable talents and good looks did not only gain him a loyal fan base they also led him to an exclusive contract with one of the most influential labels in music industry.
Just three weeks ago his first album “Brentilicious” made it to the spot light. Although it received lukewarm reviews it quickly became a hit in the gay community and drew the attention of a television producer. “The Anna Tober Show” was known to be a stepping stone for aspiring entertainers regardless of their race and sexuality. This was Brent’s big chance to reach out to a wider audience. For the last two weeks he had no peaceful night since he counted the days and then the remaining hours. It was sheer torment just watching the clock.
Finally, today was the day Brent would show the world that his songs weren’t limited to listeners who happened to be members of the gay community but for people no matter what they were and who they loved. Still, he couldn’t believe that he would perform in less than twelve hours. His heart skipped a beat… again.
He opened his eyes and stared at the white ceiling flooded with bright daylight. Next to him was a muscular hairy man, sleeping peacefully in the king-size bed they shared. Brent couldn’t remember his name. But he remembered the beautiful tool between his legs and the taste of his tongue. All in all he was a great distraction. But it ended when the first sunshine touched his face and brought out the features that Brent couldn’t see when he fucked him senseless.
Time to get ready, he thought. His right hand went down to his companion’s crotch and reached for… breakfast.
Meanwhile, Josh Yankow had the same idea. He put his lover’s member into his mouth. It slid down… one inch… two inch… three inch… and then there was a moan of pleasure when it was deep in his throat.
Three years ago Josh lived a very heterosexual life with a wife and three children and never gave a thought about men being attractive. But his sexual preferences slowly changed when all of the sudden curiosity came over him. After he gave in to his growing urge he realized that he couldn’t remain faithful to his wife. He cheated on her with Jeff who happened to be the same guy Josh was now deep throating.
Since his first blowjob his cock sucking skills progressed. Thanks to Jeff and the other men who showed him the ropes Josh became a professional. Moreover, he embraces a completely new lifestyle including a new sense of fashion. When he was still living the life of a straight man he didn’t care about his clothes. He preferred them more or less being proper and comfortable. That was all that mattered to him back then.
Now he was into leather, rubber, skin tight jeans, flashy shirts, knee length boots and various accessories like necklaces, rings and armbands. Simply put, he loved to dress in clothes that looked very gay on him.
In addition he was very concerned about his body. His hair had to be super short. Every two weeks he visited his barber to have his hair cut and colored. He even swapped his beard he once was so proud of for a manicured scruff that made him ten years younger.
Furthermore, the gym became his second home. Although he was already fit before his ‘transformation’ his current workout routine turned him into the hunk everybody admired. And he had to admit that he liked to draw people’s attention.
Three years ago Josh couldn’t imagine a life in the spot light. It all changed when Jeff, his lover, persuaded him to do striptease and made him try out for the title of International Mister Leather. The latter led him to porn movies. Within a few months Josh reached stardom and became a renowned escort for rich men.
Jeff put his hand on Josh’s head and gave out another moan. The expression on his face made clear that he was just one step ahead from exploding. But Josh didn’t back off. He wanted his load and was eager to swallow. And he did…
That was all he needed for breakfast. He licked his lover’s ‘man juice’ from his lips and headed to the shower.
Time to get ready, he thought…
At the same time Doctor Cindy Miller got a call when she was about to leave her office for her daily round.
“Hi, Brent,” she said on her cell phone while she went down the hallway. Some of her colleagues passed by, greeting her with a “Good morning, Doctor Miller”. She responded to each of them with a smile.
“How are you,” Cindy asked her best gay friend who was more than thousand miles away.
Brent gave out a sigh. “Terrible,” he replied. “I couldn’t sleep.”
“Did you take one of the pills?”
“I did. But it didn’t work. You should have given me real sleeping pills.”
Cindy stopped in front of the room where Edward Hahn a high school senior was recovering from an attempted suicide. He tried to end his life by taking an overdose of sleeping pills. If it wasn’t for his mother who left work earlier he would have died on that day. But the trouble didn’t end with his last-minute rescue. On the contrary, he became sort of a problem patient since he was admitted to Cindy’s hospital.
“You know that I am no advocate of substance abuse,” she remarked. “Take a hot bath. Or have a massage. I’m sure that there’s a spa in your hotel.”
“Been there, done that. I met one of the workers and had him fuck me. But it didn’t help either.”
Cindy was already used to his sex stories. But there were times she wished he would keep them for himself or just be more discreet. “Brent, I am sorry. I have work to do. Can I call you later?”
“Of course,” he said. “Sorry if I have bothered you.”
“Don’t worry…”
Brent bid his best friend farewell and sighed when she hung up. He wished she was by his side. To him, it seemed like they were a world apart. And the thought of her being that far away caused him a feeling he never experienced before.
Before he knew what happened to him loneliness was killing him. After all it was Cindy who recommended him to start a career in the music industry. Without her support he wouldn’t be here. He would still be the guy who didn’t know what he was capable of.
Brent’s eyes turned to his companion who gave him some exciting hours last night. He was putting on his clothes. In a few minutes he would make his leave. There was no chance for a second date. Brent was fully aware of that because he already experienced the same scenario more than thousand times. After a few hours of pleasure each one of his companions lost interest in him and continued to search for their soul mate. Brent, however, was just a great fuck.
A year ago he wouldn’t give a dam about the fact that nobody considered him as husband material. But his attitude changed when he reached his 30s. He realized that he wasn’t getting younger. And someday he would be too old for the gay dating scene.
Brent gave some thoughts about his future. Could he really accept the fate that awaited him? Maybe, he should step into new territories? At least he could try.
For a few seconds Brent hesitated. He wanted to reach out for his companion. But he was at a loss of words and was too afraid to be turned down. After a long breathe he took his courage in both hands.
“How about breakfast,” Brent stammered. His lips turned into a smile but it wasn’t very convincing. He had never asked a guy that question. It was his first time.
“Maybe next time,” his companion said. In the bright daylight he didn’t look that bad. On the contrary, he was quite handsome. Brown hair. Blue eyes. Tall. Muscular… And then he was gone.
Brent knew that he would never see him again. He gave out a sigh. And for the first time he tried to figure out the reasons for his inability as he was lying in bed naked…
Josh, on the other hand, was just standing in front of his wardrobe and was putting together his outfit for today. As always, he agonized over the many choices he had to make. All he wanted was to look good and to stir up some heat. But on this particular day he was asked to wear something more decent. Unfortunately, decent clothes were rare.
“What’s the matter”, Jeff asked and put his arms around his chest.
“I just realize how gay my wardrobe is.”
“Well, that’s because you love to have your ass fucked by gay men,” Jeff said and nibbled Josh’s right ear, “giving blowjobs to gay men and doing gay porn movies for gay men.”
“Stop it,” Josh giggled.
Jeff’s hand went down his back. He gave out a moan when his lover pushed his index finger into his hole. And when he increased the pressure Josh put a smile on his face.
“I already sucked you off,” Josh recalled.
“I’m still horny.”
“You’re making me late.”
Jeff moved into position and buried his hard member into Josh’s ass. His hole was still stretched by his attempt to set up a new record a week ago. Josh and thirty-two men participated in an orgy that should have lasted four days. But it had to be cancelled when one of his fuck buddies suffered a heart attack and another one lost consciousness due to dehydration. Despite the incidents, Josh had an exciting time. Moreover, he could finally confirm that this was the life he was meant to live and he loved it. There was no turning back for him since he completely lost his sexual interest in women. He even wondered why he was attracted to his ex-wife on the first place. Guys had a lot more to offer.
As Jeff, his lover, speeded up his thrusts and filled him with his juice Josh decided that he should be true to himself. He put on one of his skintight leather pants, black leather boots, a white tank top and his leather wristband.
“Why don’t you stay here,” Jeff asked.
“I promised her to spend the day with them,” Josh replied. “And I should keep my promises once in a while.”
“You still have some attachment to your old life?”
“I’m enjoying the life I’m living now. And didn’t I let you fill me up a few minutes ago?”
“Stay,” Jeff recommended. “Leave your past behind. And let’s go to the party together. Have some fun with the guys.”
Josh sighed. “I’d love to. But they are my kids. And I should take over the responsibility for putting them into the world.”
“They still have their mother.”
“And she can still sue me for alimony.” Josh kissed his lover on the lips. “See you at the party.”
Jeff responded to his kiss by grabbing his head and forcing his tongue into his mouth. He didn’t want to let him go. He wanted to push him down to his crotch and let him lick his cock. But Josh managed to break out of his embrace and head to the door…
Just a few blocks from their apartment Doctor Miller was visiting one of her patients, high school senior Edward Hahn. He was a member of the football team, well-built, good-looking and popular among his classmates. Furthermore, he was the only child of a wealthy family and therefore the heir of a sizeable fortune. But three days ago he tried to kill himself by overdosing himself with sleeping pills. It happened out of the blue. Nobody knew the reason for his suicide attempt. And when asked, Edward remained silent.
“I heard that you still refuse to eat,” Cindy said, referring to another problem that occurred after his unwanted rescue. For three days Edward did not touch his food nor did it look like he drank anything. To prevent him from dehydration he was on a drip-feed. “I have to admit that I can understand your lack of appetite. The food in the hospital isn’t the best. But I can help you to get a pizza. Just ask.”
As always, Edward did not respond. He ignored her as the people around him including his parents and friends who had no clue what was going on. They tried to get an answer out of him – anything that would give him some sort of explanation. But all he did was staring out of the window. And there was no life in his eyes but emptiness.
Cindy had to refrain herself from slapping his face. He was still young. And it was way too early for him to spare a thought about death.
“You know, you’re not going anywhere with that attitude of yours,” Cindy explained.
She tried very hard to stay calm. He had so many years ahead of him, so many years to grow, to experience happy, sad and unforgettable times and to realize the beauty and the love that surrounded him. During the last three days Cindy met those people who deeply cared for him. And he pushed them away.
“You should stop it,” she said.
Finally, he showed sign of life, but not the one she hoped for. He let out a loud fart. Again, Cindy had to force herself to stay calm.
Can’t he see that we are trying to help him, she asked. Oh well, he is just a spoiled kid…
There was nothing she could do but to make sure that he was provided with the best medical care.
“I’ll have you transferred tomorrow,” Cindy sighed. She knew that it was the only way to save him from his own stupidity. However, she didn’t like it. “If you need something, just ask. We are here to help you,” she said. “You just have to let us know… See you later.”
Cindy left the room to go to her next patient, someone who was more willing to communicate with her.
When she walked down the hallway, she met Lori, Edward’s girl-friend. She was the most beautiful girl at her school. Almost every student had a crush on her, whether they were male or female. In addition to her gorgeous appearance she was smart, sweet and had a very close relationship with Edward since kindergarten. They were destined to marry and to raise their children together.
“Hello, Doctor Miller,” Lori greeted with a perfect smile on her beautiful face.
“Hello, Lori.”
“Is everything alright?”
“Everything’s fine,” Cindy replied. “But he is still… indifferent. I already discussed with his parents about his further treatment.”
With that Lori lost her perfect smile. “The psychiatric ward?”
“It’s for his best.”
“Our prom is coming up. And he is supposed to be my date.”
“I’m sure you’ll find another guy.”
“There is no way I’m gonna be with another guy,” Lori protested. “Edward is the only one I want to be with. I am the only one for him. Nothing is gonna change that.”
“And why did he try to kill himself,” Cindy asked.
Lori gave her an angry look, then the cold shoulder. And off she went, heading to Edward’s room…
Brent made it out of the hotel. He couldn’t stay in his room anymore as boredom took over. And so he decided to take a walk and do some sightseeing before he made his television debut. Perhaps he would find some distractions on his way.
If his good looks didn’t draw everybody’s attention already, then his uncommon outfit would definitely be an eye catcher. He wore a pair of tight leather pants, black knee length boots, a short-sleeved leather shirt that seemed to be drawn on his skin, a leather vest, black gauntlets and a leather garrison cap. Long story short: His clothes were crying at the people to turn their eyes to him. But their reactions weren’t always positive.
Brent had to bear a few disapproving looks. Especially, teenagers didn’t like the way he dressed. They even threw names at him that weren’t charming like “faggot”, “sissy”, “shitdick”, “bender”.
Luckily, Brent wouldn’t let it get him down. He was proud of who he was. Even if those words hurt him, he would never change the way he wanted to show his true colors and spread them around the world.
To the people who didn’t accept him he used to say: “Kiss my ass!”
Brent visited the park and checked out the joggers. Most of them weren’t his type. They were too old, too young, too fat, too slim… Then he set his eyes on a guy sitting on the bench and drawing a picture. He seemed to be in his early 30s. He was tall and muscular. And his eyes were green like a forest. Unfortunately, he was dressed in old-fashioned trousers and a lumberjack shirt. And his hair and beard were a mess.
Definitely straight, and definitely not interested, Brent thought.
However, he took a seat next to him as he was tired from his walk.
It was a warm and shiny day. The birds were chirping and the quiet wind brought some fresh air. Brent could just relax for a few minutes. And he did until…
“FAGGOT!”