Embracing His Eyes 3
by Fahrenheit80
(Author's note: This chapter can also be considered as a continuation of "Just another love story".)
Nobody could explain why things didn’t end up the way it was supposed to be. Several investigations were done to find out what really happened on the day Benjamin Schmidt was pronounced dead for almost five minutes. But they all failed to come out with an explanation. The doctor who performed the operation on Benny was a renowned expert with hands that were believed to do wonders. Every hospital in the world approached him offering one big paycheck after another. He even got invited to several television shows on a regular basis and for a time he was in the top twenty of the most desirable bachelors in the world. There was no way that a genius (and a hunk) like him would make a mistake that fatal that it almost killed his patient. Even his assistants who kept a close eye on him (and his perfectly shaped body) stated that he did a great job. Still, at the end of the operation Benny’s heart suddenly stopped.
After they realized what was going on everybody did his best to save the life of the divorced father of two. The doctor even performed CPR as Benny was about to drifted away into the afterlife. A few of his assistants who were by his side claimed that he begged the Lord to bring his patient back to life. In exchange he would give up partying and ask his longtime girlfriend to marry him. Luckily, God seemed to be in a good mood on that day. The doctor and his assistants managed to reanimate Benjamin Schmidt.
In retrospect, they didn’t have to give so much effort. After all he was just some guy. Nobody would have put the blame on the doctor if he really had died. His family, however, was shocked when the news of his near-death experience were delivered to them. Little did they know that Benny was temporary trapped in a world between life and death during the five minutes his heart stopped beating and hell went loose in the operation room. It was there he met the soul of his late father and uncovered the truth about his new eyes. To be more precise, the person who became Benny’s donor was Samuel Schmidt, the man he hated for more than two decades. And it wasn’t just some coincidence. His father planned it all along that his eyes were given to him after his death!
It took Benny a long time to come to terms with his father’s gift. But he wasn’t the only one Samuel Schmidt, the former Marine who went from happily married man to out and proud gay party animal, asked for forgiveness. Benny’s mother was surprised when she found out that her late ex-husband left her with most of his fortune. At first, she didn’t want the money. After all it was Sam, the love of her life, her high school sweetheart who ended their happy marriage for another man. Before that he cheated on her and drastically changed from the person she used to love with all her heart to some arrogant bastard who couldn’t stand touching her the way it was supposed to be. How could he do that, she asked herself in all those years. Wasn’t he the one who proposed to her more than three times before she finally gave in to his eagerness? Didn’t he convince her that it was a good idea to raise a family in the suburbs? Didn’t he tell her that it was the thought of her waiting for his return that saved him many times during his days in Afghanistan? She gave him her heart and he didn’t mind to give it back to her after their big talk on that fateful day he admitted that he was deeply in love with a rubber-clad skinhead and wanted to be with him for the rest of his life.
While he was enjoying hot and steamy activities with his partner, completely transformed into an openly gay rubber-clad skinhead walking around with a large-gauge septum piercing and provocative tattoos his ex-wife told to herself that there was no true love in the world for her. Happy-ever-after didn’t exist. It was nothing but wishful thinking. However, she miraculously changed her mind. It happened when she was given a letter written by him the day she was told that she would inherit a fortune. Only she was allowed to read its content. Whatever Sam wrote to her, it led her to accept the money and forgive him.
Since Benny’s mother had no idea what to do with her inheritance she shared most of it with the rest of the family. After that when it turned out that she was still in the position of having no worries about making ends meet she decided it was time to fulfill a wish she had been keeping since she was a little kid. She took a trip around the world. After visiting all the places she always wanted to see with her own eyes she came to realize that she could still find some happiness for herself. In addition to live life to the fullest she took her remaining years to found a non-profit organization that supported single mothers to get back on their feet financially and emotionally.
It was through the work with the organization she was finally able to finish the longest chapter of her book that involved the suffering her late ex-husband caused and the years of hard work in order to put some food on the table. She overcame Sam’s betrayal and was ready to open her heart to another man. His name was Frederic. He wasn’t really the love of her life. But he remained a faithful partner and stayed by her side until the day she peacefully passed away. On her deathbed she was surrounded by the people she loved. Her children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren gave her comfort when her organs slowly stopped working. They told her how important it was to have her in their lives and that she would be forever missed. Before her soul left her dying body and rose up to heaven she said with a smile on her face: “There is so much love in this room.”
When his mother passed away Benny cried for many hours. If it weren’t for his four children and seven grandchildren he would have lost all of his teardrops on that day. And then there was his husband Lewis who held him in his strong arms.
Thirty years ago they met in a gay leather bar Benny visited out of curiosity. Lewis was one of the guys who checked him out. At first, all he wanted was some company for the night that involved some activities in his private dungeon. He didn’t expect to find Mr. Right. Since the moment the owner of a leather clothing store gave the father of two who just came out of the closet a pinch on the ass that was hidden in skin-tight leather jeans and looked into his beautiful eyes the two men were inseparable. Three years later they exchanged rings dressed in leather from head to toe during the International Mr. Leather Contest in Chicago. It was a spontaneous and very private ceremony only a few friends from the gay leather community attended. Prior to that Lewis happened to meet Martin Loughlin the former leader of a religious group who turned his back on his old life and became a gay activist, an International Mister Rubber titleholder and the domestic partner of Jeff Tanner. They talked about marriage, Martin’s spectacular wedding that took place in an old castle somewhere in Scotland and the night Jeff proposed to him at their favorite gay leather bar. After listening to his stories Lewis was eager to tie the knot with his lover and asked Martin to be their priest. Then he dragged Benny into one of the hotel meeting rooms he booked for their secret wedding ceremony. Benny who was left clueless about his boyfriend’s plans was so moved that he had a hard time to find the right words to express his feelings for Lewis in front of the little crowd.
Of course, they had a real big wedding with their families and friends a few months later. Benny’s mother, his ex-wife, his two daughters and his sisters insisted that they had to go through the same hell every happy couple had to endure. On their wedding day Benny wore an expensive white suit that was hand-tailored by Steve Lanxess his favorite fashion designer and one of his best friends while Lewis was dressed in a formal black suit. Again, it was Martin Loughlin who married them in front of the people they loved.
After they finally satisfied their families and friends who literally forced them to have a real big wedding with cakes, champagne and an uncle who made a fool of himself by having a drink too much it didn’t take long for them to realize that they wanted to raise children. They had their twins via surrogacy, a boy and a girl with the most beautiful eyes in the world. While Lewis looked after his leather clothing store Benny voluntarily became a stay-at-home-dad and for some reasons he did a great job. Although everybody was afraid that Benny who sometimes behaved like the stereotypical feminine gay man on TV could mess up with his children’s lives, somehow, they became respectable persons and ended up married to a partner of the opposite sex. Thanks to him and other gay parents the world slowly came to accept the fact that gay people didn’t make children gay.
The funeral of Benny’s mother wasn’t a very big one. Only her family and closest friends were invited. However, the people who came to bid her farewell were truly thankful that she was part of their lives. Although she went through decades of suffering she managed to overcome the past and used her remaining years to have a great impact to her surroundings. Countless women got their lives back together thanks to her non-profit organization. She even gave children who were living in unstable environments the support they needed to have a proper education and a chance to show society that they could change their lives for the better. Despite her good deeds she remained one of the many unsung heroes whose names would be forgotten over the years. But to her children, her grandchildren and great-grandchildren she would remain a role model of unconditional love and self-sacrifice even after death. Every one of them wanted to have the same strength she had to overcome the obstacles of life.
Benny, however, was crying at her funeral most of the time. He almost filled a river with his tears. To be more precise, he really wasn’t somebody people should look up to. Lewis did his best to console him. But it wasn’t until his five-year-old granddaughter Erin climbed on his lap and wiped his tears with her small hands that he finally pulled himself together. Then she whispered into his ear that she forbad him to die until she became a bride to some popular actor whose face graced the rooms of million girls at that time. Erin was Benny’s sweet little girl who always made him smile with the pure innocence of an angel. If he didn’t have the cornea transplant back then he would have never made the transformation from an overweight homophobe to a muscular, fashion-addicted, sensitive gay man and Erin would have never been born. Thank God, his father’s eyes changed his life. But before he could be the out and proud gay man everybody loved he had a long way to go.
Right after the operation Benny recovered within a short period of time and was bursting with energy. He could hardly wait for his doctor to remove the bandage that covered his eyes. When the day finally came to open a new chapter he was overwhelmed by all the lights and colors that surrounded him. Prior to the operation his world used to be a dark place. Now he found beauty all around him. How could he be so blind, he asked to himself while looking at all the things with his new eyes. Life wasn’t that bad. In fact it was a miracle. The day when Benny was released from the hospital he took a long walk. It was raining cats and dogs at that time. Still, Benny couldn’t see anything but beauty. When a raindrop fell from the sky and landed on the ground in front of him it scattered in bright colors. To most people it was just a raindrop. But to Benny it was a natural spectacle that literally took his breath away. Almost everything he saw with his new eyes unleashed an emotion that put a smile on his face.
Unfortunately, Benny’s happiness came to an abrupt end the moment he looked into the mirror. What he saw was the reflection of a guy with a balding head and a body that was covered in fat. For more than two decades he did nothing but eating unhealthy food, watching TV, making people around him feeling uncomfortable and being bitter day in, day out. No wonder his daughters didn’t want him to pick them up at school. They were embarrassed to have a fat ass as a father and he couldn’t blame them for that. Benny hated the sight of his reflection. He hated the man he had become. He hated his ugly face. He hated his clothes. He hated his lame excuse of a haircut. He hated everything on him. There was only one solution to his problem. (Actually there was another one. But that was out of the question. He already died on the operating table. Although he had no recollections of the five minutes he was pronounced dead he could tell that being dead wasn’t something people should ask for. So, committing suicide was a big NO-GO!)
Benny’s transformation started after meeting Craig List who was a certificated personal trainer his youngest sister recommended. In addition to being very understanding with his clients he was an extremely handsome man. It wasn’t really surprising that the people he helped to get in shape were mostly women of all ages. Even happily married housewives couldn’t resist his good looks and often found themselves flirting with him. However, Craig was resistant to their advances. Although he was aware of his sex appeal it seemed he wanted to show the world that he had more to offer than a pretty face and a muscular body with arms like trees, a broad chest and an ass that was literally crying for attention.
When Benny met Craig for the first time he instantly knew why his sister was giggling like a little girl while talking about him. He was indeed extremely handsome. It was almost scary. To Benny’s own surprise he was aroused by his personal trainer. But it was not only his perfect body that made his blood boil but the outfit he wore. His red trousers were wrapping his legs and ass. They appeared to be painted on his skin. And then there was his bright yellow turtleneck that was so tight that his pierced nipples were very visible through the thin fabric. A few weeks later while working out at the gym Craig told him that all of his clothes were hand-tailored by Steve Lanxess, a famous fashion designer he was very good friends with. Benny would later find out that Craig and his fashion designer were more than just friends. They were in fact married. In other words, Craig was one lucky guy since he could get all his clothes for free. He preferred them not only to be fitting but colorful. Sometimes he would leave the house dressed in blue rubber pants and a top that was made of small silver rings or in a dark-brown leather kilt and a red silk shirt. Thanks to his husband he was giving the world some eye-candy. Of course, there was also his perfect body that was covered with tribal tattoos. His favorites were the four black armband tattoos he had on each arm as they stood for his four children he raised after their mother and his ex-wife Claudia passed away two years ago.
Before the kids became part of their lives Craig and his husband Steve used to have an open marriage. Every weekend they would take part in orgies or night long fuck sessions with various guys they picked up together or apart. It was easy for them to have their sexual needs satisfied. But when Craig’s ex-wife and best friend Claudia was diagnosed with cancer they voluntarily stopped fooling around and took care of the children. However, they thought it would be only temporary. Of all people, it was Craig who didn’t want to give up his excessive lifestyle. After all, he just came out of the closet at age 31. He did enjoy the attention he got from all the hot guys who lusted for his body. Before he fell in love with Steve he was some unhappy overweight guy who hated every day of his life. After his transformation into a muscle hunk and his coming out that followed he had a great time sucking cocks and getting his ass fucked without feeling guilty. When it was certain that Claudia would lose her fight with cancer he couldn’t promise her to look after their children right away. In fact, he was horrified by the thought to become a full-time dad again. His reluctance almost destroyed his marriage. Steve called him an irresponsible bastard and told him that he would raise his four children alone. He would even give his multi-million-dollar company away and took over the role of a stay-at-home dad if he had to. Although they weren’t related by blood he loved Craig’s children and he would do anything for them.
Craig and Steve broke up. But they soon reconcile. After all Steve’s was the love of Craig’s life. Still, Craig was unhappy to turn his back on all the fun he could have. So they agreed to a compromise. Every second weekend Craig could fool around as long as he didn’t take his fuck buddies home. He did it for a few months until he realized that it wasn’t fair to his husband who took over the responsibility to wipe away his children’s tears and make it easy for them to grieve over their mother’s death. Finally, he had the courage to face his ex-wife at her deathbed and promised her to give his children everything they needed including a father who loved them dearly. It happened to be the same night she would close her eyes forever. Since then Craig and Steve remained monogamous and became gay parents to four children who were still going to elementary school. To make things short, they were one happy family.
At first Benny was unaware of Craig’s homosexuality. Although it was obvious that Craig was playing for his own team Benny thought that he was just a guy with an unusual fashion sense. He was still lacking a gaydar that actually worked.
When Craig came out to him after finishing a workout session his confession did surprise him. But for some reason Benny wasn’t appalled by it. Before he had his operation he was very homophobic. His dislike for members of the gay community was always giving the people around him a headache. That went especially for his ex-wife who could tell you a thing or two about it. Somehow, his new eyes changed him. Not only did he have the strong urge to look sexy but he showed some mannerisms that would be very concerning if you were unlucky enough to meet him before he had his corneal transplantation. For example, he became obsessed to keep his apartment clean. A speck of dust was enough to send a chill down his spine. Almost every day you could see him running around holding a cleaning rag. The old Benny would never lift a finger for household chores even if you held him at gunpoint.
In addition to being bitten by the cleaning bug he bought new furniture and very fancy decorations. Thanks to the money his late father left him he didn’t have to look at the price tags. If there was something that instantly drew his attention he would buy it without a second thought. His favorite was an Antique statue of a naked man who was holding a sword and a shield. In retrospect, it was the length of his semi-hard member that aroused him.
Then there was Benny’s wardrobe that slowly changed. As he lost a great amount of body fat and gained muscles thanks to Craig’s workout program and dietary advices he was able to try out various outfits of style. If they showed off the results of the countless hours he spent in the gym he would purchase them in a blink of an eye. Over time they became more fitting and flashy. You could also use the word ‘flamboyant’ to describe the clothes he preferred to wear. People started to turn around and have a look at his abs, pecs and especially his magnificent round ass that was inviting them to bury their faces between his muscular buttocks.
Craig, his personal trainer, was really doing a great job. If it wasn’t for him Benny would still be a fat couch potato with little self-esteem and a very short span of life. The old Benny would have never thought that he would be good friends with an out and proud gay man someday. And here he was getting in shape with Craig who didn’t hide his homosexuality. On the contrary, if you asked him about his sexual orientation he would give you an honest answer and make some comments about the activities he did in his bedroom, in his garden, in his car and in his secret playroom.
People were surprised that Benny managed to get over his homophobia and be good friends with someone like Craig. The two men even went to a picnic together with their children along with Craig’s significant other Steve who happened to be one of the sexiest guys Benny ever met. His incredible looks almost outshined Craig’s. No wonder, that there was an outcry among millions of women and men when he announced that he was in a happy relationship. Seriously, Craig and Steve could easily break into the porn industry. When Benny witnessed them kissing and holding hands the sight of his personal trainer and his husband being deeply in love made him realize that he wanted the same things they had. He wanted to see sparks fly. He wanted to spread his fingers to invite a very special person to fill the openings with his fingers. He wanted to kiss the man who would rock his world and hold him in his arms… Then it hit him. Benny wasn’t thinking of a woman but a man! How could it be?
Just a few months ago Benny was jerking off while imaging a voluptuous porn actress giving him a blowjob and calling him the sexiest man in the world. But that was back then when he was still in denial about his unhealthy lifestyle. Now he was a real hunk with a real six-pack, real muscles, an expensive haircut and clothes that were too revealing to old Benny’s liking… On second thought something very strange was happening to him. Benny finally realized that it wasn’t just his body that was changing. The way he walked. The tone of his voice. Even his taste in music wasn’t the same anymore. What the hell was going on? Benjamin Schmidt was a homophobe who made the headlines for being knocked out by a gay man after calling him a big old queer. He used to be disgusted by anybody he suspected to be attracted to the same sex. There was no way that he would wake up someday realizing that he is actually craving for cocks. But soon he would think otherwise. He would find himself in the company of men admitting that he did not only enjoy their friendship but the things they could do to him behind closed doors.
In the following days Benny tried to figure out what was happening to him. He was sure that a person couldn’t change his sexuality from one moment to another, unless he was deeply in denial and realized his real sexuality later in life.
Could it be that he was in fact gay? Could it be that the anger towards his late father prevented him from discovering who he really was? And after finally overcoming the trauma of his childhood his true self was starting to emerge? Then, was he living a lie all this time? How would his family react if he told him that everything he did until now was one big mistake that he wanted to be corrected?
Benny was at a loss. Suddenly he didn’t recognize the man he was looking at while standing in front of a mirror. He was muscular. He was handsome. He could have any woman he wanted. Even the voluptuous porn actress he was lusting a few months ago wouldn’t say no to his advances. But there was this strong feeling that he wasn’t true to himself.
Benny’s world began to crumble when he had the corneal transplant. Through some research on the internet he found the case of a successful businessman and father of three who developed a cleaning obsession following a similar operation. There was also a plumber claiming that he discovered a gift for painting thanks to a new kidney. A few scientists believed that transplanted organs could impart memories onto the donor recipients. Could it be that his father’s eyes were making him gay? That would definitely explain a lot of things.
When Benny asked Craig for his opinion about the things he found out his personal trainer laughed at his assumptions and admitted that he already suspected him being a gay man in the closet. After all Benny was always checking him out with those curious eyes. “Remember the time we were in the locker room? You actually asked me the length of my cock when it’s hard.” There were other clues that indicated his repressed homosexuality. Unfortunately, their conversation made Benny more confused than he already was. So Craig invited him to his favorite gay leather bar. “I promise you that it’s going to be an experience you won’t regret.” Furthermore, Craig was sure that it would give him the confirmation Benny needed to accept his true self. And there was also the possibility that he would get laid on that night. With his body that would be a piece of cake. Although Benny had second thoughts about visiting Craig’s favorite gay leather bar, after a while curiosity took over him. He didn’t know that it would turn out to be a fateful night that would change his world forever.
But before they went out to have some fun they had to pay a visit to a very special store since Benny couldn’t enter a gay leather bar dressed in his everyday clothes. All the sexy men would turn their backs on him if he didn’t follow the dress code. To Benny’s surprise the place where they were looking for a proper outfit for his first big gay night out used to belong to his father’s fetish label that was sold to Craig’s husband Steve Lanxess for an immense sum of money. He was hesitant to enter the store at first. But against Craig’s persistence he was powerless. And so he made another step to get to know his father. When Craig asked him to try on his very first pair of leather pants he started to warm up a little. It was a fashionable piece of clothing with a lot of zippers that actually had no real purposes. They were just there to make it look outstanding. In addition to the leather pants Craig dressed Benny in black leather boots and a very tight rubber tank top that highlighted his muscular upper body.
Of course, the first outfit failed to satisfy Craig’s hypercritical eye. Remember, it was a very special night. So it had to be a very special outfit. While they were browsing the racks and slowly driving the store clerk to desperation Benny started to understand why his late father was into that kind of stuff. When the shiny fabric touched his skin the sensation was overwhelming! It was no surprise that Benny was unable to hide his horniness. Never in his life had he experienced such an erection. All the blood left his brain and pumped through his swollen cock. The other customers couldn’t get their eyes off him and the giant snake in his pants.
A few hours went by. The store clerk was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. You could tell that he was overjoyed when Craig and Benny finally decided on a pair of skin tight black leather pants, a leather buckle harness, black boots, two chrome arm bands, two black leather gauntlets and a leather police cap. Since the store was owned by Steve Lanxess they didn’t have to pay a cent for anything of them. Craig really was a lucky guy. “Almost perfect,” he said to Benny. “Now we have to do something about your hair.” For that purpose they stopped by Craig’s hairstylist.
Again, Benny was a bit reluctant as he already had a haircut just two weeks ago. However, Craig didn’t refer to the hair on his head. Benny had grown a full beard! To make things worse, he wasn’t really the type of man who could wear something that resembled a dead cat on his face. Moreover, he should do something about his hairy chest, arms, legs and some other parts of his body. So, in addition to a severe crew cut that was done after a great deal of persuasion Benny got a body waxing. It was one of the most painful things somebody did to him. He actually cried every time Craig’s hairstylist pulled off the strip.
“You bastard,” Benny yelled at his tormentor when he worked on his pubic hair. “You’re enjoying it, do you?!”
“Sweetie, I’m a hairstylist,” was his reply. “Of course, I’m enjoying it.”
Next Benny’s beard was trimmed down to a handsome goatee that made him look a few years younger. Then his bushy eyebrows were plucked into perfect triangles. Everything took several hours. But you couldn’t complain about the result. No wonder, Craig would rather shave his head than trusting another hairstylist. This guy was a miracle worker! Benny could pass for a man in his mid-twenties. Now he was ready for his first big gay night out.